Who am I that you are mindful of me?

"When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him..?" Psalm 8:4

Its not even that he is mindful in that he created the human body so INTRICATELY that it can see and think and breathe and remember, and so EXTRAVAGANTLY that each person's thumbprint is unique.  Its not even that he is mindful in that he gave us souls and free will with the desire that we might choose to worship him, then pursued us with sacrificial love to ensure the door was always available should we choose to knock.  But today the mindfulness that leaves me in awe is that he is has a plan for every part of our lives, and he unravels it in stepping stones.

At church here I have become involved in working with the 11-18 year olds on a Sunday night, through a group called 'Focus'.  I had decided against finding a weekly placement through college with the hope that a ministry would come about naturally, so it fitted well when I was asked to help out.  Though nervous I wouldn't have the skills to connect with the young people, Focus has been a joy to be a part of and I have surprised myself with a feeling of urgency for them to come to know Christ.

Then tonight was 'connect' night at church which is once a month to unite the church and pray into different aspects. And the theme this time was our Focus group.  I got to hear for the first time of the issues and the prayer behind the group starting; the fact that there were originally just two people in that age group, and the fact that they were praying for leaders: cue Andy and I starting at the church.

And then the other victory; that Andy, Hannah and I had to plan and deliver this service.  Public speaking; something I had come to dread due to a time of a lack of self-esteem is perhaps slowly being returned to me (this is the third time I have had to speak at this church).  But the stepping stone is gradual because the Lord is a gentleman to me and the audience at Finaghy Baptist is small and generous with their encouragement.

Tonight I can't shake the sense that the Lord has far greater plans in store for me than I envision for myself.  He is not only mindful of me; he is EXTRAVAGANTLY concerned and INTIMATELY involved in every aspect of my life.  The very same God who made the moon and the stars, how can this be?