"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." 2 Timothy 1:7and that's been enough to have me questioning my motives since. In Colombia last summer, the Lord used a devotional one of the team members did on Romans 8:11 to literally change me. I could no longer pretend that my doubting my ability to do God's will was some kind of humility or meekness but I was in fact doubting the Spirit of God within me... the very same Spirit that raised Jesus Christ. Well that blew my mind and to illustrate his point the Lord had us do things in Colombia that physically I would never have thought I could. The Lord was speaking ADEQUACY into my life on that trip (Adecuada in Spanish) and has been reminding me of this persistently since. And I guess it got flagged up again when Brent asked me to give my testimony at Wednesday night church, and I literally type out my "sorry... no" reply (I really really don't like public speaking) when the Lords like "REALLY, you're really going to be that selfish and not let me use what I've done in your life so that you can sit back and be glorified." There goes my spirit of timidity.
So then today when we were back at the homeless shelter and I find myself doing things that I would never volunteer myself as capable of doing I am shown once again that it is in our weakness that his power is made perfect. I love people who assume I can do things that I wouldn't think I could, but more than that I LOVE Jesus for reminding me today that as his children we are bought into adequacy... throwing off the spirit of timidity and instead clothing ourselves in power, love and self-discipline.
No comments:
Post a Comment