"Don't dwell in the plans of your future over the truths I have written on your heart today."

My future: laying down my future to the Lord has always been a struggle for me. The last year or so has been a lot about the Lord teaching me that I don't need a back up to his plans. This has had huge implications, especially on the way I approached school work, as the holy spirit convicted me that I needed to lay down my grades and that constant striving to be 'well qualified' for life, just in case I ever needed a plan B.  Or even coming to Texas, the Lord convicted me that I needed to close down my extra bank account because I was using it as a safety net instead of trusting in his providence.  In essence the Lord has been stripping the plans I have for myself away to show me that I need to put all my eggs in one basket: HIS perfect will for my life.

The Lord has a habit of casually filling me in on promises for my future, which can be awesome and exciting but then at the same time I have to stop my mind going into overtime as to how he is going to work these things out.   Now when I get a pen in my hand, there's no telling what the Lord is going to speak to me so when I looked down at my booklet in bible study today to see i'd written, "Luce stop trying to build a monument out of my plans because I will MAKE you lay them down," I really had to stop for a second.  I realised I have been turning the Lord's plans into my own plans, as if somehow he needed ME to make them happen?!

Galatians 3:3 "Are you so foolish?  After beginning with the Spirit, are you now trying to attain your goal by human effort?"

The Lord is showing me that I am at risk of neglecting the heart he has given me today and the relationships he has put in my life right now out of fear that I might compromise his plans for my future.  I had not been able to see the irrationality of my fear.  The Lord does not set himself up against himself; the truths the Lord is speaking to me now CANNOT contradict the truths he speaks over my future.

So today is a call for me to lay everything back down, to stop loving independence, to stop loving perfection and to be still in the presence of my maker.