Frustrations.

I find it so powerful how the Holy Spirit not only meets us in the moment but at times goes before us to break or mold or equip us.  One of the ways I see this clearly is in our personalities, how our likes and dislikes can be a guide and preparation for our calling.  There are those things that always make you cry, or angry or excited; the random things you can't shake from your mind.

 Lately I have found a curiosity into whether there is a disconnect between Christian culture and Christ-likedness.  Obviously this is completely culture subjective, but I have been worried by, and debated, the extra rules we have added to Christianity and the resulting judgement passed on those who do not comply.

I couldn't understand why it frustrated me so much, beyond the usual hurt pride, when people comment on my clothes or lifestyle until I considered it in light of the burden of my heart.  I realised I am worried, worried that as much ministry the Lord may have prepared for me for women in the sex industry, they not be accepted by or feel at home in the church.  I feel like I want to prepare Christian culture for openmindedness and sensitivity and acceptance; but how are we to balance this with the integrity of high standards? How do I turn my frustration into constructive preparation?

I am desperately small in the face of my calling, but it is amazing for me to see my heart being formed.  That it is not just my affections that can guide me but my frustrations too.